Cactus Country : A Boyhood Memoir
(Book)

A stunningly written literary memoir about gender-fluidity, class, masculinity, and the American Southwest that captures the author's experience growing up in a trailer park outside of Tucson, ArizonaCactus Country is a literary coming-of-age memoir tracing the intersections of trans identity, class, and the landscape of the American Southwest. Set in a trailer park outside Tucson, Arizona, the book tells the story of a young gender-fluid person growing up against the dramatic natural backdrop of the Sonoran Desert. We meet Zo as an 11-year-old moving through a world of giant beetles, thundering javelinas, and gnarled palo verde trees. Although Zo lacks the vocabulary to express it, they experience life as a trans boy, spending summers running in a pack of other sunburnt hoodlums and school years fending off classmates' intrusive questions about the body underneath their baggy clothes. As Zo enters adolescence, they are exposed to the hard masculinity that so many of Cactus Country RV Park's working-class residents embody, and are increasingly troubled by the prospect of growing up to resemble the often sexist, racist, and violent men around them. Meanwhile, outside the trailer park, the fraught intimacies of first love give way to a traumatic sexual experience that further destabilizes Zo's sense of self. Zo stops resisting femininity, but cannot escape the persistent threats associated with moving through the world in a gendered body-or the feeling that their particular relationship to that body is fraught. Still, a spark persists, leading the young adult Zo to leave Cactus Country for college, ultimately becoming one of very few to embrace whatever awaits beyond. Equal parts harsh and tender, Cactus Country is an invitation for readers to consider how we find our place in a world that insists on stark binaries, and a precisely rendered journey of self-determination that will resonate with anyone who's ever had to fight to be themself.